Too many hobbies, little time

I’m introverted, and asocial. I like spending time on my hobbies. I’m the type to finish off all my work first, then relax. I’m the type who eats all the boring stuff off a plate, before relishing the good stuff. I have a high-speed routine of how I get ready, and how I unpack when I’m home. I know how many minutes I need to freshen up.

It’s odd but I cram in as much as I can, in a day. I don’t think I have experienced boring days in decades. However, the same things that keep me engaged, also leave me longing for a little more time (and energy) for more things. As I have grown older, I think it’s the mental space (and a bit of the physical energy) one needs to truly indulge that’s lacking on weekdays especially. Physically, trying to play the guitar at the end of a long day is something I can’t get myself to do. Even gaming, sitting upright in front of a PC starting at 11pm, is rarely fun. I’ll often lie down on the couch after 12am, scrolling through content on a laptop, while some tutorials, game-streaming Twitch or YouTube videos that I’ve queued up through the day, and play them on the larger screen.

Even the weekends can feel sapping at times - by the time Sunday afternoon arrives, my mind fixates on the week ahead. This is something I realized the prior week’s 5-day holiday (when I started this blog), allowed me to do - to truly feel empty and spacious - to do things at my pace and expand each activity as I felt fair. I must make my weekends longer, more often.

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